Lexapro postpartum -had a personality change after Lex Didn’t love my husband

I took Lexapro for two years for depression after my second child was born. Initially I felt “lighter” and began to enjoy life again. But soon aferwards I started noticing a personality change in myself. It started with my work (I am a CEO) where I took uncharacteristic risks, not caring about the consequences. Normally a relatively calm and quiet person, I started going out late at night drinking, sometimes three or four nights in a row. this was a very frustrating time for my husband as I am sure he was wondering where his wife of nearly 10 years had gone. I would swing from having no feelings at all (going to extremely sad movies where I would normally be in tears but feeling absolutely nothing) to extreme aggression (arguing with anyone who didn’t agree with me). This post struck home to me because i remember having a conversation with my husband about this very same topic. In the last few months of taking Lexapro I decided that i no longer loved my husband and asked for a divorce. he was shattered. I felt nothing. Even when I realized that our son had heard me say this, I still felt nothing. I don’t know what made me realize that this bizarre change in character, temperament, behavior etc came about due to Lexapro, but I just had a nagging feeling about it. It was a very difficult drug to wean off but I managed to do it with my husband’s support. Now, two years later I am completely “normal” again and have reverted back to my original personality. When I look back at those two years now I can’t believe how patient my family was and how scary it must have been for them. I was never told that these side effects would be so devastating. Unfortunately when you are in the situation it is much like being in a storm cloud – you don’t realize that you are in the storm until you stop taking it and can “step out” of the situation and see it in hindsight. I sincerely hope that the makers of Lexapro can begin to be nmore upfront about these side effects. I wonder if I am alone in this?