Polydrugged, life ruined

I was not on effexor, but had been put on lexapro, wellbutrin, zoloft, before finally being put on prozac, all this in combination with xanax that I developed an addiction to, followed by a hysterectomy at 32. I began lying to my husband of 15 years, with which by all accounts I had the most absolutely amazing marriage you could have asked for, and was very happy until my hormones screwed up and i got depressed at which point they started trying me on this array of anitdepressants. I cheated numerous times, and couldn’t tell you why, and all the sudden one day i packed my stuff and up and walked out the door on my husband and my two beautiful children, who still don’t have much to do with me now. IT RUINED MY LIFE, AND THERE’S NO FIXING IT! I began using drugs, and got caught up illegally using street drugs, before i finally got myself together. I hope and pray everyday to have the restoration of my family, even though we did get divorced. I am so very sorry for the things I did, and am still told to this day things I said and did, that I have absolutely no recollection of. I AGREE DOCTORS ARE ENTIRELY TOO FREE WITH ALL THESE MIND ALTERING DRUGS, THE EFFECTS ARE DEVASTATING!

Do you have some links I can look at regarding prozac and causing this behavior, because it happened to me, and no one believes me, that this is what happened to me, I lost my marriage and I husband I loved with my whole heart, my relationship with my children is destroyed, and I desperately want to rebuild, but they don’t understand, that wasn’t me that did those things, please help me find the info to give to my ex husband