Tapering off of Zoloft.. 25 years later Terror hospitalized, depression, disabled

After 25 years of being on psychiatric med, mostly SSRI, I felt enough well to try to stop it. It was Zoloft. I knew a little about safe tapering. I stopped it gradually ( from 150 mg to 0) but my last dose was 50 mg. The symptoms which hit me were unbearable. Terror anxiety lasted 1,5 year. I hadn’t even one day without anxiety. I suffered anxiety much worse than anything I experienced before. It took me my life: work, studies. Then I had the worst depression in my life. I was 3 times in the hospital since that. Now I am on 3 meds, including SNRI and antipsychotic. I am able to buy food, cook dinner, go for a walk. Most my energy goes for regulate my emotions. I am disabled. I trusted my psychiatrist, she is a person caring for her patients. But she never warned me that I can experience unhuman horror, much worse than my first symptoms. She never told about safe yapering lastin years. It could prevent my present sutuation I believe. I lost more my achievements. I suffer grief, I look for trauma oriented therapy. Sb wrote that it ( wd) is like torture. This is right description. I wish nobody suffer like that. It was unhuman, destroying any trust to life.