Citralopram

have been on Citalopram for just over a year. I feel completely devoid of emotion for my boyfriend of nearly eight years. To see the hurt in his eyes when I tell him I don’t love him just breaks my heart. I feel tremendous guilt every day, and often think it would be easier to leave, if only to let him get on with his life, and to stop this guilt I feel. I have no idea if this detachment I feel is because I really don’t love him, or if its a symptom of this depression, or a side effect of the Citalopram. Every day just seems a nightmare.

Both my husband and I were on celexa, I was given 20mg of celexa for post mental distress about 4 years ago, I started tellig my husband that I did not love him, would not let him touch me, told him that if he wanted sex to get it some place else and that I wanted to live by myself. Well my husband was also on Celexa 20mg for depression. My GP changed my mg to 40 in December I did not feel good on the 40 so I would only take half. My husband took it upon himself to take 40mg he said the 20 wasn’t enough.in

January he started drinking and going to strip clubs in April he was having sex with a hooker that was a stripper he had sex with her once or twice a week till November. I remember in November he told me that he was going to tapper off of celexa he said that is when he realized what he was doing and stopped with her. He gave her so much money that we are loosing our house. After I found out some of the truth he wanted to kill himself, he was then put in mental hospital. He says he doesn’t know if the celexa was the reason for him doing this. I want to say screw you and leave but if it was the celexa how can I . He says he beleived me when I told him that I didn’t love him. So how will I know if it was

the celexa or just him screwing around? I really need help.

I was a completely normal person for over 35 years before celexa turned me into a crazy person. I had been married for 14 years and had 3 children that I adored. The reason I began taking antidepressants in the first place was depression caused by unexplained infertillity. I had some miscarriages, too. I was honestly depressed. Once I began taking Zoloft it helped. I wasn’t as sad or angry anymore. After I had my first child I never considered going off of antidepressants because all of the doctors I had seen told me that once you start you don’t get off of them. They said it is usually to hard. So here I was, a regular person just living my life with my husband who I loved and my 3 gorgeous kids. Now, don’t get me wrong- life was not perfect. My husband and I had fights just like any couple and my kids would make me crazy from time to time but isn’t that life? I’m pretty sure it is. When I changed to celexa I got a huge burst of energy! That was a great feeling! I had felt tired for years. I don’t know when I began going off the deep end but once I fell off I was GONE! Suddenly I didn’t pay attention to my kids anymore(I dote on my kids like noones business) and I hated my husband. I have never hated ANYONE! But a few months on celexa and no one mattered but me and I was 17 again and the best thing since sliced bread! I thought I was Megan Fox hot and all I wanted was attention from other men. It was ridiculous! I am a God fearing woman! I love my Heavenly Father! I believe in Heaven and Hell! While on this drug I still believed most of what I was taught all of my life but I didn’t care about it one bit. All I cared about was the high I would get from the attention I got online. I would stop at nothing to get it. My husband is a very handsome man who I have always been attracted to. He has always been in great physical shape and our sex life has never been anything but fabulous. Yes, even with kids in our life. But that wasn’t enough for me on celexa. I wanted that high. I allowed other men to do things to me(that I did not find pleasant)just so they would keep paying attention to me on the internet. How psychotic is that? Let’s cheat on the hot, loving husband that has always been there for me with the disgusting pieces of trash I don’t know from Adam just for the sake of some online attention. Ya, that makes sense. The point I am trying to make is that IT ISN’T YOU! IT ISN’T THEM!! If you have someone in you life that has suddenly gone crazy because of ssri’s- rest assured they do not realize it! The ONLY reason I am not still under the influence of this stupid drug is because when I realized I no longer wanted the children I had spent 7 years on my knees begging God for, I handed the reins to my husband. I stopped and looked around and literally thought “HOLY ****!” I realized I could not trust my own judgement. I asked my husband to fix it. I didn’t know what to do. The first thing he did was to make me an appointment with a doctor to get me off of celexa. As soon as the drugs started leaving my system my mind began to clear. I began coming back. It was a long hard road and I am so grateful to my husband and my family for getting in my face and saying “HELLO! You are MESSED UP!”. I can’t even tell you how grateful. So I am trying desperately to give back. I am contacting everyone I can in the government to get involved with the regulations of ssri prescriptions. A doctor should NEVER be allowed to prescribe a mind altering drug for 12 months and not have to see the patient during that time! ANY drug should be monitored, no less an ssri!! So if there is anyone reading this that needs help let me know! I will do my best! Also, if there is anyone reading this that can steer me in the right direction to make a difference please let me know! I am just a housewife. I don’t know a lot about medicine or legalities. But I do know that someone needs to do something! I am more than willing to be that person. Please help if you can.

I am in my office crying… I was madly in love with my boyfriend – six months is not a long time but we have the same values, have fun together, and I LOVED being with him. On the Friday I sent my mom an email with people who I would want at my wedding. He has not asked me yet but I was euphoric with anticipation. God loved me – I was finally happy and was going to have my true love and husband and children. Literally out of the blue the very next day, I felt sick and was crippled with anxiety. It was like someone switched off a switch of my feelings for him and I was so sick with anxiety and severe depression that I admitted myself in the hospital (short stay). My psychiatrist put me on 60mg Celexa and am taking an anti anxiety med so I can function. Someone else said they are devastated because the very same thing happened to them. What can we do? I do not want to end my relationship either but am sick with anxiety fear guilt because those “feelings” are gone … or different. God please help us. We are so devastated…. I don’t know what else to do.

I been on Citalopram for about 5 years it was only 14 months ago I entered a reletionship and i loved this person deeply she was a great part of my life but at times it was hard cause i would have no sexual desires at all i knew this was side effect but i didnt know the ssri stopped the ability to fall in love which what happened to me 

even thou i love her it was like i couldnt expressed my love and it was like my feelings were blocked 

I think Citalopram SSRI caused alot of problems in the relationship 

it stopped my ability to really feel the love and it stopped my desires 

I know the meds are great for treating depression but the side effects can can take its toll  Crying or Very sad

Has anyone been in relationship while they were on Citalopram and found that it was hard to love that person even feel that your emotions are just numb and there was no feelings no emotions no sexual dedires 

I think ssri can really effect relationships 

and when you go off the meds you realise you get all feeling back 

i use to best myself up thinking what was wrong with me why couldnt I  act on and feel love but i guess i had the meds to thank for that.

I am so grateful I came across this forum. I was looking for an explanation for what I have done to nearly RUIN MY LIFE when I read therealme’s post. I related to EVERY single aspect of her story. I had even moved out of my home that I love, left my husband whom I love, and was going to be satisfied with joint custody for the rest of my small children’s lives. I cheated on my loving husband with absolutely NO GUILT at all – I decided it was because it was “right” or I would feel the guilt that a God-fearing Christian woman should feel. My affair partner and I had so much in common and had an amazing connection. I now know why. He was on the same krazzy pills and probably in the same hypomanic state as me. We could do no wrong and the world better adjust to us and our twisted mind set. Hindsight makes me so angry and ashamed with myself. 

The whole time, my husband kept telling me that maybe it was those pills! I decided he was looking for something to blame for our marital problems other than himself. 

Finally, I got enough sense to do some math – my whole life had spun out of control 1 month after initiating Celexa and here I am 10 months later amazed at how nuts I was. These drugs should not be prescribed by someone who doesn’t have a psychiatry degree! I was having anxiety that should have just been dealt with in a natural way instead of taking psych drugs prescribed by my OB/GYN! What a joke!

The side effects from coming off of this stuff make me realize these medications are no joke and should never be taken lightly. I have never stopped praying during this mess and praying to help me as I deal with the horrible withdrawal side effects. As I am coming clean (1 week and 1 day

), the clarity and the aftermath of what I have done are extremely hard to face. I have learned how medication can take 10 years of happy (not perfect) marriage and almost ruin it in 4 months. Thank God I have my mind back – and thank God I stumbled on this site because you all gave me the strength to do what I knew I needed to do! I feel like I am reclaiming the life I so loved and enjoyed. I hope my words may help someone – anyone.

I have taken paroxetyne for 5 years and then the doctor changed it to citalopram and i realised I have no libido…then the doctor changed it to fluvoxamine and I realised I can`t feel love for my boyfriend. It was a tragedy because we planned to get married:( It was the beginning of the horror. I gave up all medicationss but I lose all the feelings! All! I can`t even feel any mood…I feel almost nothing for 2 years:(

My ex partner took these drugs and turned into a completely different person. Abandoned his family and isolated himself. Lacked empathy when I needed him most. Completely destroyed our life.